Life on Planet Widowhood is a paradox. Time speeds up and slows down simultaneously. Life is happy and sad. I want to keep things the same as ever and change everything.
I feel that I have so much to do and I want to get it all
done as soon as possible. I am reworking my home and my life - creating a life
that suits one person. Time is going by
too fast. I’m not ready yet.
And yet, the days of sadness and grief drag on. When will this be over?
It’s not the life I want, but it’s the one I’ve got. There is some guilt in taking any pleasure at all in changing the way things were. And yet… and yet…
